I’ve had some people ask how the babies and myself are doing…so here’s a little update.
About a month ago I had multiple genetic tests done via ultrasound and blood draws. Ultrasound and blood work for Downs Syndrome checked out normal. However, my AFP blood test came back high risk. My doctor explained this test looks for markers for Spina Bifida and digestive wall deformities. She also explained this test often gets false positives, but at my next ultrasound with the perinatal specialist, they would measure and looks for signs of those conditions. I decided to put that out of my mind until the time came to “deal with it”.
Last Friday, March 13th was the date of my scan with the perinatal doctor. Nathan and I did what we could to prepare ourselves for unfavorable news. I feel like I should be getting better at preparing myself to hear things I don’t want to hear, but I don’t feel like I am. But even in the midst of the unknown “scary” things, I have hope. I know that my Heavenly Father is in charge, nothing can or will change that. I know that He works and wills everything for our good because we love Him. I know the Holy Spirit comforts me with a peace I cannot fathom and He intercedes for me when I have no words…which is more often than not. I know that the man He’s blessed me with is by my side for better or worse. To share in the joys and sorrows of life. The Lord uses Nathan in such a huge way. And I know He created these two people EXACTLY the way He wants them to be. Whether they live on this earth 70+ years or 7 minutes, they are created in His image and He will use them to grow us for His purpose. He is Sovereign. He is All-Knowing. And He is Good.
I felt like the ultrasound lasted forever. The blood clot is still there. It’s bummer, but doesn’t seem to be causing any trouble. There were some bright spots during the time though, we found out baby A is a girl and baby B is a boy…just like A&H. God is pretty cool for working it out like that a second time. At the end of the scan the tech explained that both babies spines and belly walls looked good. She said their hearts are still too small to do the necessary measurements for those, so I would need to come back for that. Then she asked if anyone in either of our families has any history of foot deformation. We couldn’t think of any. She showed us baby A’s feet compared to baby B’s. Little guy’s feet look like you’d expect, extended showing toe bones. Little girl’s feet did not…it just looks kind of like a fist. She said the doctor would come in to explain more but to her it looked like clubbed feet. While you never want to hear something is “wrong”, we couldn’t help but be thankful that there were no signs of neural tube defects or stomach wall issues. The doctor came in and explained to us what exactly this meant. He said this is very treatable and does not look to be associated with any other conditions, which is very good. He also told us that he was born with clubbed feet. He said he has no issues whatsoever. He explained that he’s been very athletic his entire life, runs marathons, and leads a very active, normal lifestyle. She will need to be evaluated by a pediatric orthopedist at birth to decide how to correct the feet, which is done with casting, a brace, or in extreme cases where ligaments are involved, surgery. He said this will most likely all be corrected hopefully before she can crawl and most definitely before she can walk. We left the appointment rejoicing. We also know the Lord allowed that AFP test to come back high risk to help prepare us for the news we would receive. It was His grace on us that we were not walking into that appointment expecting to hear “it’s all good.” But no matter what news we received, these two people (ALL PEOPLE) are fearfully and wonderfully made by His Hands.
Fast forward one week…yesterday afternoon I took a short nap and when I woke up at about 3:30 and I felt strange. I sat up and suddenly my heart rate sky rocketed, I could hear and see my pulse, and I thought I was going to pass out. Suddenly my belly got hard and hurt sooooo bad. I could not get comfortable. Now, I have a pretty high pain tolerance, so when I’m laying on the bed not moving and crying, Nathan kind of…freaks out a little. He got the kids ready and we headed up to Columbus. This was a little after 4pm that we left our house. We arrived around 5:30pm and they put me in a triage room to monitor me. The on call doctor did an ultrasound and said the babies heart rates looked great and I was not dilating, all excellent news. But he said he did not like that the monitor was picking up more contraction-like activity then he wanted to see. Also my belly was still pretty hard. He said it could be contractions or that my uterus is irritated by the blood clot. He decided to get me some IV fluids to see if that would calm things down. It did. After almost 3 hours there, I was sent home. More instructions to take it easy and when I think I’ve had enough water, drink more water.
I’ve had some people ask me how I’m doing…pretty good. As annoyed as I am that I keep being told to rest and take it easy, I’m overjoyed both kiddos are looking good. My prayer is to be walking in the Spirit and not reacting to situations out of my flesh. I know the Lord wants to use my time of weakness to grow me and bring me closer to Him. I will be very glad once I’m done being pregnant and I get to hold these babies. I don’t think I’ll feel completely at ease until then. (Not that nothing can/will happen after they are born…but I will be glad when this phase is over.) Nathan and A&H are super understanding and very helpful and I’m so thankful for them. Now I just need to start getting ready for these kids to arrive! I’ve bought some fabric to make blankets and burp cloths…but we still need cribs, a dresser, car seats, diapers, bottles…lots to do! Not to mention names for these kids…that’s the challenging part!
Thank you to so many of you who are praying for us and sending us texts, emails, and words or encouragement. You are each a blessing! I’ll close this post with our gender reveal picture I posted on Facebook last week.