“I hear the Savior say,
‘Thy strength indeed is small;
Child of weakness, watch and pray,
Find in Me thine all in all.'”
Jesus Paid It All by Elvina M. Hall
Last week I kept seeing blog posts in my facebook and IG feeds about goals, resolutions and words for this new year. I’m sure you saw it too. Maybe you have a goal or a word too. I love words. I think a word can involve so much.
My word has been popping up in various areas of my life for the past couple of months. It’s nothing earth-shattering, profound, or even powerful. It’s an area I struggle in and something that I obviously need to be reminded of frequently.
Multiple times this past fall I kept reading articles, blog posts, devotionals centered around drawing strength from Christ. I wasn’t purposefully reading them either…I was either drawn by the title, had the post show up in my inbox, or the article just happened to take a turn in that direction.
Songs that would come through my Pandora City Harmonic station would echo that theme: “all I need is You”, “You carry me”…etc. Songs like “Strong” & “Brand New” by City Harmonic especially resonated with me. “Come as You Are” by Crowder is another.
And one verse kept coming across my path that has always gotten under my skin a bit: 2 Corinthians 12:10 “For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” My NIV Bible says “I delight in weakness”. The King James says “take pleasure”. NASB- “well content”. Content? Delight? Pleasure? These are not words I equate with weakness.
My word is: weakness.
I do not like to admit weakness. I do not like people to look at me and think “she’s struggling”. I want to be the one who helps the weak ones. I want to be the one who can take on burdens and not really let it effect me…or at least not show that it effects me. Not only do I not like to admit weakness…but to take delight in the fact that I’m weak, what does that even look like?
I’ve been reading through 2 Corinthians because Paul talks a lot about his hardships and struggles there. I want to see if he has answers about what it looks like to rejoice in weakness. Here’s something I’ve noticed: weakness does not mean I get to sit around and be mopey-grumpy pants. It does not mean I walk around with a certain attitude that says “Pity me. Whoa as me.” Paul might have been in jail, but he was still doing Gods work using his gifts of writing, encouraging, and praying. People tried to kill him, he didn’t cower and live in fear of them. Earlier in 2 Corinthians in chapter 4 he says we are not to be discouraged by these light and momentary troubles. As in not heavy and not long lasting. Why? Because the same One Who raised Jesus from the dead is walking through the troubles with us. Because the eternal glory awaiting us cannot compare with the troubles of this life. (2 Corinthians 4:13-18)
Since this is my word for the year, I will continue to camp on this. I want to know how to practically live out my days in delightful weakness in Jesus, pointing others to Him because He makes me strong. And I know He will not return void on my search. I trust He will give me plenty of opportunities to know my weakness and need for Him.
What is your word for this year? What are you wrestling with? What passage of Scripture do you hope to understand better through this year?
Happy 2015 friends…I’m pressing on in my weakness.